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Sally Ride : breaking barriers and defying gravity
Pérez, Jackie
ABC-CLIO
, 2025
; English
; 241 Pages
Showcases the life of the first American woman in space, from her childhood, to her accomplishments as a tennis star, and her pioneering achievements as an astronaut and science educator.
Explore Sally Ride's life and contributions and understand the historical context of landmark events, movements, and women who paved the way for her success. Ride's groundbreaking achievement represented a moment of triumph in an ongoing struggle for gender equality propelled by pivotal events such as the 1960's Civil Rights Movement advocating for equal rights for all individuals, and the enactment of Title IX in 1972 ensuring gender equity in education. Written for students of American and women's history, this examination of Ride's life places each milestone in its historical context. This illuminates not only the world she lived in, but also her enduring significance to the contemporary challenges women and LGBTQ+ people continue to face in their efforts to pursue careers in STEM. A detailed chronology, curated sidebars throughout, chronological sequencing, and primary source documents make this a singular and necessary first-stop reference resource on Ride's life and work.
Pérez, Jackie
ABC-CLIO
, 2025
; English
; 241 Pages
Showcases the life of the first American woman in space, from her childhood, to her accomplishments as a tennis star, and her pioneering achievements as an astronaut and science educator.
Explore Sally Ride's life and contributions and understand the historical context of landmark events, movements, and women who paved the way for her success. Ride's groundbreaking achievement represented a moment of triumph in an ongoing struggle for gender equality propelled by pivotal events such as the 1960's Civil Rights Movement advocating for equal rights for all individuals, and the enactment of Title IX in 1972 ensuring gender equity in education. Written for students of American and women's history, this examination of Ride's life places each milestone in its historical context. This illuminates not only the world she lived in, but also her enduring significance to the contemporary challenges women and LGBTQ+ people continue to face in their efforts to pursue careers in STEM. A detailed chronology, curated sidebars throughout, chronological sequencing, and primary source documents make this a singular and necessary first-stop reference resource on Ride's life and work.
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The power of Adrienne Rich : a biography
Holladay, Hilary
Princeton University Press
, 2025
; English
; 505 Pages
A New York Times Book Review Editors' Choice
"A comprehensive biography of . . . one of the most acclaimed poets of her generation and a face of American feminism."—New York Times
A major American writer, thinker, and activist, Adrienne Rich (1929–2012) transformed herself from a traditional, Radcliffe-educated lyric poet and married mother of three sons into a path-breaking lesbian-feminist author of forceful, uncompromising prose as well as poetry. In doing so, she emerged as an architect and exemplar of the feminist movement, breaking ranks to denounce the male-dominated literary establishment and paving the way for women writers to take their places in the cultural mainstream. Drawing on a wealth of unpublished materials, including Rich's correspondence and in-depth interviews with many people who knew her, Hilary Holladay provides a vividly detailed, full-dimensional portrait of a woman whose work and life continue to challenge and inspire new generations.
Holladay, Hilary
Princeton University Press
, 2025
; English
; 505 Pages
A New York Times Book Review Editors' Choice
"A comprehensive biography of . . . one of the most acclaimed poets of her generation and a face of American feminism."—New York Times
A major American writer, thinker, and activist, Adrienne Rich (1929–2012) transformed herself from a traditional, Radcliffe-educated lyric poet and married mother of three sons into a path-breaking lesbian-feminist author of forceful, uncompromising prose as well as poetry. In doing so, she emerged as an architect and exemplar of the feminist movement, breaking ranks to denounce the male-dominated literary establishment and paving the way for women writers to take their places in the cultural mainstream. Drawing on a wealth of unpublished materials, including Rich's correspondence and in-depth interviews with many people who knew her, Hilary Holladay provides a vividly detailed, full-dimensional portrait of a woman whose work and life continue to challenge and inspire new generations.
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Welcome to the club : the life and lessons of a Black woman DJ
Paulette, DJ
Manchester University Press
, 2024
; English
; 258 Pages
Featuring a foreword from Annie Mac
In Welcome to the club, Manchester legend DJ Paulette shares the highs, lows and lessons of a thirty-year music career, with help from some famous friends.
One of the Haçienda's first female DJs, Paulette has scaled the heights of the music industry, playing to crowds of thousands all around the world, and descended to the lows of being unceremoniously benched by COVID-19, with no chance of furlough and little support from the government. Here she tells her story, offering a remarkable view of the music industry from a Black woman's perspective. Behind the core values of peace, love, unity and respect, dance music is a world of exclusion, misogyny, racism and classism. But, as Paulette reveals, it is also a space bursting at the seams with powerful women.Part personal account, part call to arms, Welcome to the club exposes the exclusivity of the music industry while seeking to do justice to the often invisible women who keep the beat going.
Paulette, DJ
Manchester University Press
, 2024
; English
; 258 Pages
Featuring a foreword from Annie Mac
In Welcome to the club, Manchester legend DJ Paulette shares the highs, lows and lessons of a thirty-year music career, with help from some famous friends.
One of the Haçienda's first female DJs, Paulette has scaled the heights of the music industry, playing to crowds of thousands all around the world, and descended to the lows of being unceremoniously benched by COVID-19, with no chance of furlough and little support from the government. Here she tells her story, offering a remarkable view of the music industry from a Black woman's perspective. Behind the core values of peace, love, unity and respect, dance music is a world of exclusion, misogyny, racism and classism. But, as Paulette reveals, it is also a space bursting at the seams with powerful women.Part personal account, part call to arms, Welcome to the club exposes the exclusivity of the music industry while seeking to do justice to the often invisible women who keep the beat going.
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Queer power couples : on love and possibility
Winter, Billie; Murphy Winter, Hannah
Chronicle Books LLC
, 2024
; English
; 251 Pages
This photographic celebration of queer love and excellence gathers fourteen LGBTQ+ power couples, offering a glimpse into the journeys that led to their meaningful relationships and thriving careers.
From designer Debbie Millman's ardent courtship of writer Roxane Gay to the romantic and creative relationship forged between Perfume Genius bandmates Mike Hadreas and Alan Wyffels on stage during their first world tour, this beautiful book offers a closer look into the lives of fourteen inspiring LGBTQ+ couples and the meet-cutes, success stories, and personal reflections that made them the role models they are today. These icons come from a range of backgrounds—they are trailblazers who lead research labs, kitchens, and news organizations
create life-giving art and music
and tell queer stories in award-winning books, films, and television shows.
With in-depth original interviews by journalist Hannah Murphy Winter and intimate photography by their wife, Billie Winter, this diverse collection is a jubilant celebration of queer love and an empowering reminder to younger LGBTQ+ generations of their limitless possibilities.
AMAZING PROFILES: This superlative collection features more than twenty-five queer leaders in film and TV, the music industry, journalism, academia, fine art, and nonprofits. Read about showrunner ND Stevenson and comic artist Molly Knox Ostertag, astrologer Chani Nicholas and nonprofit founder Sonya Passi, director Anthony Hemingway and actor Steven Norfleet, chefs Aisha Ibrahim and Samantha Beaird, and many more inspiring figures.
BEAUTIFUL IMAGES: Intimate, joyful, and moving, the photography of Billie Winter captures a diverse group of queer icons in the worlds they have built for themselves. Her candid, organic images of the couples share intimate moments of laughter, conversation, and comfortable silence. And at the end of every photoshoot, she asked the couples to photograph each other — capturing the couples' love and connection with a vulnerability that only they could. This gorgeous book presents LGBTQ+ relationships in all their multiplicity.
OWN VOICES: This is a book about queer power couples created by a queer couple. In-depth original interviews conducted by journalist Hannah Murphy Winter offer insightful context into the lives and careers of the LGBTQ+ changemakers, and photographs by her wife, Billie Winter, capture genuine, unscripted moments between the subjects. This is a meaningful gift for queer folks, allies who want to learn more about queer culture, and anyone who wants to uplift the stories of the LGBTQ+ community.
Perfect for:
• Queer young people and adults and their loved ones
• Allies, advocates, and activists
• Fans of portrait anthologies and storytelling projects like Humans of New York
• Fans of LGBTQ+ photography books like Loving: a Photographic History of Men In Love 1850s–1950s, We Are Everywhere, and Queer Love In Color
• Gift-giving for birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, Valentine's Day, Pride Month, and other special occasions
Winter, Billie; Murphy Winter, Hannah
Chronicle Books LLC
, 2024
; English
; 251 Pages
This photographic celebration of queer love and excellence gathers fourteen LGBTQ+ power couples, offering a glimpse into the journeys that led to their meaningful relationships and thriving careers.
From designer Debbie Millman's ardent courtship of writer Roxane Gay to the romantic and creative relationship forged between Perfume Genius bandmates Mike Hadreas and Alan Wyffels on stage during their first world tour, this beautiful book offers a closer look into the lives of fourteen inspiring LGBTQ+ couples and the meet-cutes, success stories, and personal reflections that made them the role models they are today. These icons come from a range of backgrounds—they are trailblazers who lead research labs, kitchens, and news organizations
create life-giving art and music
and tell queer stories in award-winning books, films, and television shows.
With in-depth original interviews by journalist Hannah Murphy Winter and intimate photography by their wife, Billie Winter, this diverse collection is a jubilant celebration of queer love and an empowering reminder to younger LGBTQ+ generations of their limitless possibilities.
AMAZING PROFILES: This superlative collection features more than twenty-five queer leaders in film and TV, the music industry, journalism, academia, fine art, and nonprofits. Read about showrunner ND Stevenson and comic artist Molly Knox Ostertag, astrologer Chani Nicholas and nonprofit founder Sonya Passi, director Anthony Hemingway and actor Steven Norfleet, chefs Aisha Ibrahim and Samantha Beaird, and many more inspiring figures.
BEAUTIFUL IMAGES: Intimate, joyful, and moving, the photography of Billie Winter captures a diverse group of queer icons in the worlds they have built for themselves. Her candid, organic images of the couples share intimate moments of laughter, conversation, and comfortable silence. And at the end of every photoshoot, she asked the couples to photograph each other — capturing the couples' love and connection with a vulnerability that only they could. This gorgeous book presents LGBTQ+ relationships in all their multiplicity.
OWN VOICES: This is a book about queer power couples created by a queer couple. In-depth original interviews conducted by journalist Hannah Murphy Winter offer insightful context into the lives and careers of the LGBTQ+ changemakers, and photographs by her wife, Billie Winter, capture genuine, unscripted moments between the subjects. This is a meaningful gift for queer folks, allies who want to learn more about queer culture, and anyone who wants to uplift the stories of the LGBTQ+ community.
Perfect for:
• Queer young people and adults and their loved ones
• Allies, advocates, and activists
• Fans of portrait anthologies and storytelling projects like Humans of New York
• Fans of LGBTQ+ photography books like Loving: a Photographic History of Men In Love 1850s–1950s, We Are Everywhere, and Queer Love In Color
• Gift-giving for birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, Valentine's Day, Pride Month, and other special occasions
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Is it hot in here (or am I suffering for all eternity for the sins I committed on earth)?
Zimmerman, Zach
Chronicle Books LLC
, 2023
; English
; 154 Pages
In this debut collection of essays, lists, musings, and quips, New York-based comedian Zach Zimmerman delicately walks the fine line between tear-jerking and knee-slapping, and does so with aplomb.
In this laugh-and-cry-out-loud, memoir-esque exploration of selfhood, Zimmerman dives into the pros and cons of retiring a Bible-Belt-dwelling, meat-eating, God-fearing identity in exchange for a new, metropolitan lease on life—one of vegetarianism, atheism, queerness, and humor. Whether learning to absolve instilled religious guilt or reminiscing over Tinder dates gone horribly wrong, this book is a candid and hysterical look at one person's journey toward making peace with the past and seeking hope in the future.
HILARIOUS WRITING: The stories featured in this collection are an uproarious read with a strong and established tone of voice. Featuring pieces that were originally published in the New Yorker, Is It Hot in Here (Or Am I Suffering for All Eternity for the Sins I Committed on Earth)? is a literary gem.
RELEVANT AND INCLUSIVE: Zimmerman navigates obstacles in the queer community with essays that are not only humorous and heartfelt, but also act as guiding anecdotes for young, queer community members.
ESTABLISHED AUTHOR AND COMEDIAN: Zimmerman has written dozens of New Yorker humor pieces and essays, a Billboard Top Ten comedy album that debuted at #1, and has been featured in New York Magazine, The New York Times, TimeOut, Vulture, and more.
Comedy and humor fans
Literary enthusiasts and fans of comedy writing like David Sedaris and Gary Janetti
Short story and essay collection readers
Zimmerman, Zach
Chronicle Books LLC
, 2023
; English
; 154 Pages
In this debut collection of essays, lists, musings, and quips, New York-based comedian Zach Zimmerman delicately walks the fine line between tear-jerking and knee-slapping, and does so with aplomb.
In this laugh-and-cry-out-loud, memoir-esque exploration of selfhood, Zimmerman dives into the pros and cons of retiring a Bible-Belt-dwelling, meat-eating, God-fearing identity in exchange for a new, metropolitan lease on life—one of vegetarianism, atheism, queerness, and humor. Whether learning to absolve instilled religious guilt or reminiscing over Tinder dates gone horribly wrong, this book is a candid and hysterical look at one person's journey toward making peace with the past and seeking hope in the future.
HILARIOUS WRITING: The stories featured in this collection are an uproarious read with a strong and established tone of voice. Featuring pieces that were originally published in the New Yorker, Is It Hot in Here (Or Am I Suffering for All Eternity for the Sins I Committed on Earth)? is a literary gem.
RELEVANT AND INCLUSIVE: Zimmerman navigates obstacles in the queer community with essays that are not only humorous and heartfelt, but also act as guiding anecdotes for young, queer community members.
ESTABLISHED AUTHOR AND COMEDIAN: Zimmerman has written dozens of New Yorker humor pieces and essays, a Billboard Top Ten comedy album that debuted at #1, and has been featured in New York Magazine, The New York Times, TimeOut, Vulture, and more.
Comedy and humor fans
Literary enthusiasts and fans of comedy writing like David Sedaris and Gary Janetti
Short story and essay collection readers
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American classicist : the life and loves of Edith Hamilton
Houseman, Victoria
Princeton University Press
, 2023
; English
; 524 Pages
A biography of the remarkable woman whose bestselling Mythology has introduced millions of readers to the classical world Edith Hamilton (1867–1963) didn’t publish her first book until she was sixty-two. But over the next three decades, this former headmistress would become the twentieth century’s most famous interpreter of the classical world. Today, Hamilton’s Mythology (1942) remains the standard version of ancient tales and sells tens of thousands of copies a year. During the Cold War, her influence even extended to politics, as she argued that postwar America could learn from the fate of Athens after its victory in the Persian Wars. In American Classicist, Victoria Houseman tells the fascinating life story of a remarkable classicist whose ideas were shaped by—and aspired to shape—her times. Hamilton studied Latin and Greek from an early age, earned a BA and MA at Bryn Mawr College, and ran a girls’ prep school for twenty-six years. After retiring, she turned to writing and began a relationship with the pianist and stockbroker Doris Fielding Reid. The two women were partners for more than forty years and entertained journalists, diplomats, and politicians in their Washington, D.C., house. Hamilton traveled extensively around the world, formed friendships with Gertrude Stein and Ezra Pound, and was made an honorary citizen of Athens. While Hamilton believed that the ancient Greeks represented the peak of world civilization, Houseman shows that this suffragist, pacifist, and anti-imperialist was far from an apologist for Western triumphalism. An absorbing narrative of an eventful life, American Classicist reveals how Hamilton’s Greek and Roman worlds held up a mirror to midcentury America even as she strived to convey a timeless beauty that continues to enthrall readers.
Houseman, Victoria
Princeton University Press
, 2023
; English
; 524 Pages
A biography of the remarkable woman whose bestselling Mythology has introduced millions of readers to the classical world Edith Hamilton (1867–1963) didn’t publish her first book until she was sixty-two. But over the next three decades, this former headmistress would become the twentieth century’s most famous interpreter of the classical world. Today, Hamilton’s Mythology (1942) remains the standard version of ancient tales and sells tens of thousands of copies a year. During the Cold War, her influence even extended to politics, as she argued that postwar America could learn from the fate of Athens after its victory in the Persian Wars. In American Classicist, Victoria Houseman tells the fascinating life story of a remarkable classicist whose ideas were shaped by—and aspired to shape—her times. Hamilton studied Latin and Greek from an early age, earned a BA and MA at Bryn Mawr College, and ran a girls’ prep school for twenty-six years. After retiring, she turned to writing and began a relationship with the pianist and stockbroker Doris Fielding Reid. The two women were partners for more than forty years and entertained journalists, diplomats, and politicians in their Washington, D.C., house. Hamilton traveled extensively around the world, formed friendships with Gertrude Stein and Ezra Pound, and was made an honorary citizen of Athens. While Hamilton believed that the ancient Greeks represented the peak of world civilization, Houseman shows that this suffragist, pacifist, and anti-imperialist was far from an apologist for Western triumphalism. An absorbing narrative of an eventful life, American Classicist reveals how Hamilton’s Greek and Roman worlds held up a mirror to midcentury America even as she strived to convey a timeless beauty that continues to enthrall readers.
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Prayers for Bobby: A Mother's Coming to Terms with the Suicide of Her Gay Son
Aarons, Leroy; Miller, Wentworth
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Bobby Griffith was an all-American boy … and he was gay. Faced with an irresolvable conflict—for both his family and his religion taught him that being gay was "wrong"—Bobby chose to take his own life.
Prayers for Bobby, nominated for a 1996 Lambda Literary Award, is the story of the emotional journey that led Bobby to this tragic conclusion. But it is also the story of Bobby's mother, a fearful churchgoer who first prayed that her son would be "healed," then anguished over his suicide, and ultimately transformed herself into a national crusader for gay and lesbian youth.
As told through Bobby's poignant journal entries and his mother's reminiscences, Prayers for Bobby is at once a moving personal story, a true profile in courage, and a call to arms to parents everywhere.
Aarons, Leroy; Miller, Wentworth
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Bobby Griffith was an all-American boy … and he was gay. Faced with an irresolvable conflict—for both his family and his religion taught him that being gay was "wrong"—Bobby chose to take his own life.
Prayers for Bobby, nominated for a 1996 Lambda Literary Award, is the story of the emotional journey that led Bobby to this tragic conclusion. But it is also the story of Bobby's mother, a fearful churchgoer who first prayed that her son would be "healed," then anguished over his suicide, and ultimately transformed herself into a national crusader for gay and lesbian youth.
As told through Bobby's poignant journal entries and his mother's reminiscences, Prayers for Bobby is at once a moving personal story, a true profile in courage, and a call to arms to parents everywhere.
Audiobook
Caserta, Peggy; Falcon, Maggie; Monda, Carol
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Peggy Caserta, founder of the famous Haight-Ashbury hippie boutique Mnasidika and lover and girlfriend of Janis Joplin, was a Louisiana homecoming queen turned airsick stewardess who eventually landed in 1960s San Francisco and set up shop. Her store was a hang-out for The Grateful Dead and Big Brother and the Holding Company; it was where Wes Wilson's posters hung, where Bill Graham sold concert tickets, and where Owsley's LSD was enjoyed.
Caserta's world of psychedelic peace, love, LSD, and rock kaleidoscoped into bereavement, heroin addiction, prison, and desperation. She was hated, betrayed, and self-exiled, and after many, many years has recovered, returning home to the bayou to care for her mother with dementia.
Now Caserta is giving a new generation an inside look into a revolution—both countercultural and personal—in her new memoir. It's the celebration of a transitional time in history and an attempt at redemption.
Audiobook
Caserta, Peggy; Falcon, Maggie; Monda, Carol
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Peggy Caserta, founder of the famous Haight-Ashbury hippie boutique Mnasidika and lover and girlfriend of Janis Joplin, was a Louisiana homecoming queen turned airsick stewardess who eventually landed in 1960s San Francisco and set up shop. Her store was a hang-out for The Grateful Dead and Big Brother and the Holding Company; it was where Wes Wilson's posters hung, where Bill Graham sold concert tickets, and where Owsley's LSD was enjoyed.
Caserta's world of psychedelic peace, love, LSD, and rock kaleidoscoped into bereavement, heroin addiction, prison, and desperation. She was hated, betrayed, and self-exiled, and after many, many years has recovered, returning home to the bayou to care for her mother with dementia.
Now Caserta is giving a new generation an inside look into a revolution—both countercultural and personal—in her new memoir. It's the celebration of a transitional time in history and an attempt at redemption.
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An Angel in Sodom: Henry Gerber and the Birth of the Gay Rights Movement
Elledge, Jim; Corren, Donald
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Henry Gerber was the father of American gay liberation.
Born in 1892 in Germany, Henry Gerber was expelled from school as a boy and lost several jobs as a young man because of his homosexual activities. He emigrated to the United States and enlisted in the army for employment. After his release, he explored Chicago's gay subculture: cruising Bughouse Square, getting arrested for "disorderly conduct," and falling in love. He was institutionalized for being gay, branded an "enemy alien" at the end of World War I, and given a choice: to rejoin the army or be imprisoned in a federal penitentiary.
Gerber re-enlisted and was sent to Germany in 1920. In Berlin, he discovered a vibrant gay rights movement, which made him vow to advocate for the rights of gay men at home. He founded the Society for Human Rights, the first legally recognized US gay-rights organization, on December 10, 1924.
When police caught wind of it, he and two members were arrested. He lost his job, went to court three times, and went bankrupt. Released, he moved to New York, disheartened.
Later in life, he joined the DC chapter of the Mattachine Society, a gay-rights advocacy group founded by Harry Hay who had heard of Gerber's group, leading him to found Mattachine.
An Angel in Sodom is the first and long overdue biography of the founder of the first US gay rights organization.
Elledge, Jim; Corren, Donald
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
Henry Gerber was the father of American gay liberation.
Born in 1892 in Germany, Henry Gerber was expelled from school as a boy and lost several jobs as a young man because of his homosexual activities. He emigrated to the United States and enlisted in the army for employment. After his release, he explored Chicago's gay subculture: cruising Bughouse Square, getting arrested for "disorderly conduct," and falling in love. He was institutionalized for being gay, branded an "enemy alien" at the end of World War I, and given a choice: to rejoin the army or be imprisoned in a federal penitentiary.
Gerber re-enlisted and was sent to Germany in 1920. In Berlin, he discovered a vibrant gay rights movement, which made him vow to advocate for the rights of gay men at home. He founded the Society for Human Rights, the first legally recognized US gay-rights organization, on December 10, 1924.
When police caught wind of it, he and two members were arrested. He lost his job, went to court three times, and went bankrupt. Released, he moved to New York, disheartened.
Later in life, he joined the DC chapter of the Mattachine Society, a gay-rights advocacy group founded by Harry Hay who had heard of Gerber's group, leading him to found Mattachine.
An Angel in Sodom is the first and long overdue biography of the founder of the first US gay rights organization.
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Thirty-Thousand Steps: A Memoir of Sprinting toward Life after Loss
Keefe, Jess; Hutchinson-Shaw, Mia
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
After Jess Keefe ended things with her long-term boyfriend, she moved in with her brother Matt in hopes that family could help her not only heal from the break-up but also evolve into a healthy adult. But that fantasy ended when Matt's heroin addiction came roaring back after lying dormant for years, leading to a fatal overdose on a warm October night.
Thirty-Thousand Steps is a powerful and transformative memoir that interweaves the author's obsessive training to becoming a distance runner, along with her singular, focused research into the science of addiction in the shadow of grief after the death of her brother.
In the year that followed Matt's death, Jess lived alone for the first time in her life while struggling with a loose, bereaved mind. She became obsessed with what happened to her brother and how things could have been different. She dove into research about addiction and drugs. She excavated their shared childhood and young adulthood for clues.
During this time, she was also learning how to become a distance runner. Jess pushed her body to its limits to quiet the chaos in her mind. After losing Matt, she knew she'd never be the same.
With a propulsive narrative, a unique voice, empathy, and even humor, Jess weaves her grieving experience together with explorations of the social, political, and scientific drivers that influenced what happened to her brother. Thirty-Thousand Steps explores the psychosocial risk factors that lead to addiction, the cudgel of Catholicism, the joy and shame in the early-aughts queer experience, and the extent to which one can push mind and body to regenerate after a major loss.
Keefe, Jess; Hutchinson-Shaw, Mia
Blackstone Publishing
, 2022
; English
After Jess Keefe ended things with her long-term boyfriend, she moved in with her brother Matt in hopes that family could help her not only heal from the break-up but also evolve into a healthy adult. But that fantasy ended when Matt's heroin addiction came roaring back after lying dormant for years, leading to a fatal overdose on a warm October night.
Thirty-Thousand Steps is a powerful and transformative memoir that interweaves the author's obsessive training to becoming a distance runner, along with her singular, focused research into the science of addiction in the shadow of grief after the death of her brother.
In the year that followed Matt's death, Jess lived alone for the first time in her life while struggling with a loose, bereaved mind. She became obsessed with what happened to her brother and how things could have been different. She dove into research about addiction and drugs. She excavated their shared childhood and young adulthood for clues.
During this time, she was also learning how to become a distance runner. Jess pushed her body to its limits to quiet the chaos in her mind. After losing Matt, she knew she'd never be the same.
With a propulsive narrative, a unique voice, empathy, and even humor, Jess weaves her grieving experience together with explorations of the social, political, and scientific drivers that influenced what happened to her brother. Thirty-Thousand Steps explores the psychosocial risk factors that lead to addiction, the cudgel of Catholicism, the joy and shame in the early-aughts queer experience, and the extent to which one can push mind and body to regenerate after a major loss.
